sorry

i am such a stupid little fuck up, no matter what i say or do i cant please or make anyone proud,

i am sorry for been annoying its just a way to cover everything up 

I am sorry i cant stay in contact more often guess i am just a arsehole

Sorry i didnt let you in to my world when you could of helped guess i thought i could do it on my own and still do

i am sorry i didnt turn out the way you thought i was going to 

i am sorry i have ask for help i didnt deserve the help when there are people who deserve it more


Guess what i am trying to say is sorry to everyone, i just really want to be happy but whenever i do people just show me i dont deserve happiness with their words and actions. I spend the days on my own and the nights crying in to my pillow and cutting my skin cause these are the only thing that is ever there for me. People keep telling me i am not alone but at two o'clock in the morning i am definitely alone, i dont want to disturb anyone as they may be sleeping and they deserve it.

I have even come to the conclusion i DONT deserve warmth, food, friends or anything